Saturday, December 31, 2011

Project 365 - Day 1 - 9

Day 1 - The start of my journey through photography. The coolest book, from the best friend a girl could ever wish for, with a random dinosaur but of course.






















Day 2 - I parked in lane E for Elizabeth:)


Day 3 - My dead flower that I purposely keep on display. It had been cut from my rose bush and was once a beautiful flower. This is my mood today.



Day 4 - I saw my therapist today in my next step against my depression. I have been at war with my own head for some time now. I have so much to be thankful for, so much happiness in my life, so many loved ones to love and to love me back. I know all of this and I give thanks.

But I still get sad. I look down at my life, at the mess, the confusion, and wonder 'how did I get here?' Then I wait. I wait till the feeling passes, and I move on with my life.

I want to capture this feeling, understand it, and then conquer it. Then maybe I can not only know my blessings, but to be able to live happily beside them.


Day 5 - Good day or bad. I always have my nightstand.


Day 6 - We have been going to the library on post since we first got here. They have come to be a second family to us.
I of course starting going for the girls. Story time, crafts, movies. But before the summer they asked if I could start reading as well. I said, who has time for reading? But they were persistent, so I tried. I am reading my 6th book since then and I can not thank them enough for giving my love of reading back to me.
I also have started reading the Bible every day which is something I hope to do every day for the rest of my life.
For any of my friends who have put down their books because life has become too hectic. You should go to your library and make some time. It was worth it for me.



Day 7 - I had planned on a picture of my church today. But this evening my father called me to let me know that Grandpa has finally found peace. I immediatly wished I could go find something significant enough to take a picture of. As I was trying to think of something Robin looked outside and noticed how bright the sky was for night. I ran right out and got a picture.

Maybe my Grandfather was so happy to see his maker, he filled the sky with light, as a reminder to us that though we are sad to be left behind, Grandpa is in an amazing place now. We will all be lucky enough one day to be allowed the chance to meet up with him again when it is our time.

Grandpa will be terribly missed. But while we feel the loss of a good person, the heavens rejoice for he is finally home.

I love you Mom and I am so sorry for the sadness this brings to you!

Day 8 - This is what time it is. And I have to finish packing and get to bed. Bright and early I am off to Florida to be with my family.

Who needs sleep? Well, I do;)

I promise while I am away, I will take my picture each day. I may not be able to post them until I'm home. But I will not cheat. Cross my heart ... X


Day 9 - First night in Florida. We really know how to live it up:)

This trip was exhausting for everyone. But we are all glad to have been with our family during this time. My Grandmother was so pleased to have her loved ones near, and sad to see us all go.

Project 365 - Day 10 - 19

Day 10 -

The day of the funeral.

This is a picture I took of my favorite picture displayed of Grandma and Grandpa.



















Day 11 - This is a tree that I thought was so interesting looking in Florida. I'm not sure what the name of it is, but it provides great shade.


Day 12 - This is the name tag outside of my Grandmothers apartment. I pray for her sake, that they keep it as it is. I can't imagine being married for 67 years, spending all of your time with another, sharing your life with another, and then coming back from a meal to see only your name outside of your door. How incredibly sad that would be for her.

Poor Grandma.


Day 13 - My favorite part of the day!!!

What a very trying day it had been. But night night time finally came around, and I was able to put the girls in their room and close this door. Amazing feeling after this trip.

We all got a good night sleep. I hope that my sisters and niece were able to get the same, being that two little girls kept them awake for the trip as well:)


Day 14 - My church, Vive Church.

I love my church, I love everyone that is a part of this church, and everyone who will be. Vive Church has made Sunday my favorite day of the week. I love to go be around good people with a good purpose, and get brought back to life ... week after week. This place and the people who make this place whole are my sanctuary.





Day 15 - My I care book.

When I got home from FL, I had a card waiting for me from our friends
Aimee Schmidt and Robert Barnard. It was a pretty card (it is green, my favorite color). The card was a sympathetic gesture that really touched me. I know that my friends know that I'm ok, and I know that they are thinking of me. But they still went out of their way to let me know.

The card got me thinking about all of the people I know who are in need. Then I thought about all the ways that I can easily show that I care. Maybe I can help accomplish a task, help make someones day a little easier, or just give a little something to say that they are being thought of. Then I started to write down the people I knew and their troubles.

The book is so pretty that I thought it should have a name. So I am naming it my I care book. I hope to aid every name in my book in a special way.

Is this one too many projects for me? Probably. But with the way I feel, I need too many projects. Maybe one for each mood:) I spend all day not being able to avoid my own thoughts. But while reading over the names in my book, maybe, just for a moment, I can think of how to help give someone else strength. Maybe putting myself aside for a moment wouldn't be such a bad idea;)

My father sends out a devotional each day, which usually contain a couple quotes. Today he quoted Charles Kingsley. Make it a rule, and pray to God to help you keep it, never lie down at night without being able to say: “I have made at least one human being a little wiser, a little happier, or a little better today.” - Charles Kingsley. This is the first line written in my book.



Day 16 - Here it is, in your face. My Nemesis.

I dread my weekly trip to the commissary. But I do what I need to do. I get as organized as possible. Ready with my list, my coupons (if any these days), and my reusable bags all ready to go.

Sometimes it's as soon as we walk in the door, sometimes it takes a few moments to start up ... but it always happens. Crying children (MY crying children), rude fellow shoppers, slow service, the long long lines, groceries packed poorly, and the walk to the car when the tip must be presented. I hate everything about the commissary.

This is my vent on the dreaded commissary. May I not have to deal with this experience for another week!


Day  17 - The hardest part for me with my depression, is losing quality time with my girls. I'm always behind on chores, my patience is low, and sometimes I'm just sad.

Today was a tough day for me. But I forced myself to allow Isabella some time to learn how to decorate cupcakes with me. She made four of them, and then ate two of them:)

Time with Isabella and Anne is one of the most important things to me. I want to share all of my likes with them. I also want to give them plenty of room to find what they like and where their skills lie.

Of course this project didn't help with me being behind on my chores. But my loving Rob came home and picked up for me. So now I'm going to sit with my Snookums, have a glass of wine, and just try to put aside sad feelings for now.

And maybe have a cupcake;)


Day 18 - Day eighteen.



Here's to a better day:)


Day 19 - After some time of attending Vive Church, I was asked to bake for new comers. I thought it was a great idea, and I was excited to get started. I now am addicted and hope that I never have to stop. I love learning new recipes, tweaking them to my liking, and then becoming comfortable with them.

As for decorating, I still have a lot to learn:) But I do enjoy trying out new ideas for icing, piping, and playing with colors.

Will I ever be exceptional? Probably not. But I hope to always enjoy myself while baking something scrumptious.

Friday, December 30, 2011

Project 365 - Day 20-29

Day 20 - I had such a successful day today, I was worried I was on a high. I was in a "normal" mood and I got a lot done. This morning I was in a rare mood. I was perky and I wanted to bake. But I had baked so much yesterday that I only had 2 eggs left. Not much I can do with two eggs. Well our friends, The Robinson's surprised me with a dozen eggs, just to cheer me up. Of course because I'm lazy, and not willing to pack the girls up for a trip to the store for eggs:) Well, that had just made my day. So I baked. I was not able to get my topping for my cake finished, but I baked a four layer cake. My first.

Then sadly the evening had brought with it a feeling I had started to hope may have just passed. The sadness. I find it amazing how one moment you can be amazed with how many people understand you, and the next feel so alone in the world.

What matters is now though. Before I lay down to sleep, I want to remember what these eggs represent. Not only the kind friends I have, but the genuinely good people that are in this world. People do care. And I think that's pretty amazing.

Looking forward to a new day.


Day 21 - Today, as expected, the depression has taken over more of my emotions than I'd like to admit. But I don't feel like writing about that.

What I feel like writing about is what I do have today that I wish at this moment I could feel more deeply for. I got to go to
Vive Church which is always a blessing, I get to spend time with Robert Bigda this evening, I have healthy and sometimes happy daughters, and I get to look at this face whenever I want. I know everyone is super jealous of the last part:)

I am thankful that I have so much to be thankful for.


Day 22 - The girls and I took a nice walk at the park today. We thought we were alone until Isabella realized that there was a dragon at the park. I don't know about you, but I see it too.

I can look at any cloud and see something from it. Isabella can too, and I love that. She is always looking up in the sky in search for something exciting to show someone. I love that my first born is crazy like her mama:)

We enjoyed our time at the park with the fire breathing dragon.


Day 23 - Robs job is extremely demanding and takes up most of his time. He has to be away from us far more than we would like. The girls very much miss their Daddy. So I try to keep up with some traditions for us to make Daddy being at work a little easier. Rob doesn't love breakfast for dinner, and I think breakfast is great all the time. So this is one of my go to meals when Isabella and Anne start getting worked up over Rob being gone.

Chocolate Chip Pancakes.

Breakfast and chocolate in the same meal:)


Day 24 -
 I have positive thoughts, but I can't seem to catch up to those thoughts. Sadness, pain, feeling off. I was lucky to have a good day though. Just evening brought with it some unwanted feelings.

I have so many people who love me and who I love. I got to go to Lifepoints tonight and help pass the time with some great people. Then when we got home, my loving husband took over for me. He got the girls their milk, changed in pjs, and read them their stories.

I hadn't been in the mood for pictures today, so while I was thinking, thank you God for all of these blessings in my life, I thought to go get the camera.

So here it is. My prayers will be filled with thanks tonight. For my husband and daughters, my family, my church family and friends. I may be depressed, but even I can see all the good in them. Love you all.





Day 25 -
 This is a picture of Anne watching the band practice for church. Her and kitty just sat there and watched. She would get up and dance a bit, then sit back down.

I love that our daughters are experiencing God with us. I love that they are surrounded by family, friends, and our church who all want nothing but the best for them. They are being raised by great people and great influences.

Tonight Isabella thanked God for God. The girls may not yet have a full understanding of life. But they do know that they are loved and that God is always there for them. (As Isabella would say, especially when she's scared.) And I think that's pretty awesome.



Day 26 -  Jello cake has been a tradition in my family for many years. I love jello cake, but I wanted to make it into something that is more me. So I created my jello cake cupcake.

I had a great time baking today. Baking eases my mind. You measure, you beat, you follow directions. And in the end you have created something delish. It doesn't take too much thinking, but just enough so that your mind doesn't wander into no mans land.

Now decorating is a different story. It is something I hope to conquer one day. So that part, not so relaxing:)



As for my decorating ... try and try again
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Day 27 - There's no place like home.

I've moved a good amount of times in my life. I am not complaining, I actually enjoy it. Well, of course not the moving process, but the change of environment. At first I thought I only loved it in Columbia because it wasn't Louisiana and it had a zoo. Though I do still love both of those things, I am starting to feel I can call Columbia home. I feel connected here. Not just to the space, but to the people.

I know that we wont be staying here forever. But I like knowing that I can always look back at this time with such peace. My life has really started here (mostly thanks to
Vive Church), and thanks to that Columbia will always have a special place in my heart.

Day 28 - There's no place like home.

I've moved a good amount of times in my life. I am not complaining, I actually enjoy it. Well, of course not the moving process, but the change of environment. At first I thought I only loved it in Columbia because it wasn't Louisiana and it had a zoo. Though I do still love both of those things, I am starting to feel I can call Columbia home. I feel connected here. Not just to the space, but to the people.

I know that we wont be staying here forever. But I like knowing that I can always look back at this time with such peace. My life has really started here (mostly thanks to
Vive Church), and thanks to that Columbia will always have a special place in my heart.


Day 29 - Pills pills pills.

I feel like a lab rat. Take one of these, two of these, we'll start you on this, let's change you to that.

I know I have to continue to figure this out, but my body is wearing thin. I feel funny one moment, sick to my stomach the next, tired during the day, anxious at night. I'm a mess. I wish I could just stop taking all of them. Some days I think, what would I give to be normal.

But I'm not. I'm me. So I must keep moving forward. Some days I'm just not in the mood though
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Project 365 - Day 30- 39


Day 30 - How can Chrissy not be a picture in this project?!? We love Chrissy. And if you haven't been to visit us or Chrissy and her family, you should!

Chrissy is our favorite, because she's always hungry and so gentle (as long as people don't start petting her). Going to visit Chrissy, Ginger, Isabelle, and the crew is possibly our favorite thing to do.

The zoo is open every day of the year except for two days. So if you are feeling down, go see sweet Chrissy. She will always be there to perk you up:)


Day 31 - Having two girls so close is no easy task. And they of course are night and day and rarely get along. But as they are getting older, they are starting to show signs of being more than just sisters, but maybe even friends (maybe).

Isabella found something today and immediately had to show Anne. She practically pulled her across the house as Anne squealed with excitement. I love these very rare moments. They show me that it is possible that they will have a great relationship someday.

Even though that someday may still be very very very far away;)


Day 32 - Day thirty-two.

Today we got to play Lego's at church. We are taking a parenting class. In this class we separated into two groups. We were then given a small amount of Lego's each. As a group, we had to work together to build something, using pieces from everyones pile.

We built a jail (and there is a little Lego person in there), with a yacht at the end, and there is a set of nun chucks just in case he needed to protect himself. I say not bad:)

But the idea was not what we built. It was that we couldn't have built anything with just our pieces. Everyone had to share their pieces. And we all had to give input to the idea. When raising children, we alone (as parents) are not their only influence.

As I have said before, I am very blessed in this area. I have an incredible husband, an amazing family, the most awesome friends, and the best church all looking out for my girls. I can sleep better at night knowing that all the people my children interact with and who are loved by, are truly good people.


Day 33 - The clouds coming in tonight are perfect for my mood. I've had a very discouraging day. I'm off of a medication that I have been very hopeful was the cause to all of this sadness. But day six of the new medication, I'm still sad. I'm sure it's still too early to tell what is going to happen, but still discouraging nonetheless.

But I have tonight with Rob. And tomorrow is a new day. I also had a friend drop off some cupcakes, and cupcakes are always good
:)


Day 34 - When I was a youngin, my father used to take me and my sisters to breakfast and to the fish store on Saturdays to give mom a break. That's a dad thing usually. But Isabella and Anne's dad works a lot a lot. When he does have time during the day, he will take the girls to the park and then to a local candy store here, The Peanut Man. So today I thought, why not, I'll be the one to spoil them rotten. So they each got a bag of candy, a lollipop, and popcorn. (That was not all my idea btw:)

What child doesn't dream of walking into a store that is wall to wall candy. We've had a fun day
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Day 35 - I'm am not a crafty person. I don't sew, knit, crochet. But I did always like cross stitch. I think because every square has a place, a color, a back stitch and I don't have to think about it. I just count and sew, count and sew. Similar to baking in a way. I have directions, I follow them, and I come out with something pretty. And they make great handmade gifts.

The framed cross stitch is one that my mother did for me when I was born. Looking back, I've always had cross stitch hanging on my walls. I still have most of them. Teddy bears, ballet shoes, angels, little girl type of pictures.

At times I have a hard time with this hobby. I get too anxious and can't seem to want to sit still long enough. But other times it is just what I need. Calming in a way. (Unless you make a huge mistake) So some projects may take me a weekend, another may take me two years. But they, for the most part, get done and get gifted.

I'm glad that my mother was able to pass this down to me. She of course is much more skilled than I, and can put together or sew nearly anything. But she knew that wasn't me, so she taught me what I could do. Counted cross stitch
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Day 36 -  love me some Marx Brothers! I own every single one on VHS. Even the few with just Groucho Marx. But of course with dvds came having to very very slowly re-collect. By the time I get everything I want on dvds, they are going to change it again.

If I had to choose a favorite (which is not easy to do), I would say Harpo. I think it's amazing that he can be just as funny without speaking any lines. But my all time favorite in their movies is Margaret Dumont

I threw in the Patrick Swayze for Rob and all of 4081.

Day 37 - I hate getting gas. I don't understand why. It doesn't take very long, we pay with plastic now so there is no going inside, and it keeps you getting to where you want to get to. But I still hate it.

I never get gas until my light is on. Then I have to because I'm about to stall on the side of the road. Pumping gas = Blah


Day 38 - I was going to take a picture at my lifepoints tonight and totally got side tracked. So I did this:)

Lifepoints has recently become a staple in my life. The idea of lifepoints (to my understanding) is to get together with fellow church goers, and discuss the last sermon. But it is so much more than that, and has been since our first visit. Other than eating lots of food of course;) We share, we laugh, we debate, we get off track, we pray, we become a united group of friends and not just a room full of people. And if someone new dares to enter alone, they leave with a whole new handful of friends.

I love my lifepoints family.


Day 39 -
I love love love my roses. The only complaint I have is where they are located. They are on the side of my house in a spot that you have to go out of your way to go see. But, with this silly depression, I stopped caring for them. Not because I didn't love them anymore, but at times I can't seem to keep up with things.

But recently, with my fight against the sads, I started caring for them again ... daily. And my work is paying off. My roses are coming back to me.

If it were up to me, I would have a yard just full of rose bushes. No one can be in a sad mood while looking at a beautiful flower.

Project 365 - Day 40 - 49

Day 40 - Sade Marie is my first child. Rob got her for me as my first b-day present after getting married. It was love at first sight with Sade. And since then, she has been my best friend.

She has been no easy pet as most of you know, and gets more and more difficult as she ages. But never with me. When it's just me and her, she is still my sweet baby.

I am very grateful to Rob for her. For getting her for me in the first place, but for putting up with all the money and time that needed to go into her.

I love that she is still here with us, even if she is a little poopers:)



Day 41 - The Fresh Market. It took me a while to give into buying the more expensive vanilla, chocolate, and cocoa powder ... but I'm glad I did. Not only do I get to make better quality baked goods, but I get to spend time in this wonderful store. I just love being there. Even if it is just for a few items. It smells wonderful, it is so clean, and everyone is friendly. Even the girls love being there. Isabella always says, "Wow! It's beautiful in here". (I think she has been to the commissary one too many times). Which means that they behave, and that makes the experience so much nicer:)



Day 42 - I love sushi. And I have to admit, thanks to the Sushi Court, I am a sushi snob. Tonight I was able to have great sushi with great friends. I also got to try out a new type of sushi that may be my new favorite. Candy sushi (thanks to Carrie at The Peanut Man). My favorite was the octopus roll:)

I did not have a babysitter, but Rob came home from work to watch the girls while I went out. Not too bad eh? ;) Next time I get a night out though, I would prefer for my Snookums to be by my side
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Day 43 - Messy messy messes.

My life is one big mess, and I mean that literally. I am a slob, my daughters are slobs, and my pets are slobs. All of that equals one really really messy house.

Incidents, as shown in the picture, are not uncommon in the Bigda household. My children and pets are able to create a mess that blows my mind, every time.

I believe a home represents those who live there. But I hate to think that people would feel the same for us:)

Some day, when the girls are older and our world is calmer, I hope my home will look just as I want it to. Till then, one mess at a time
:)



Day 44 - I love how innocent children are, how real, how simple, how accepting.

I fear for my daughters for when the time comes when they begin to really understand the world around them. The hurt, the sadness, the judgement. I wish I could shield them from all pain, even if it meant taking it all on myself. But that is not an option for me. So I will never stop being the voice in their ear reminding them that they are good girls, who make good choices. They are beautiful, unique, and kind.

I can't stop the world from hurting them, but I will always be there to wipe the tears away.

“Sabbath Prayer”

[MOTHERS AND FATHERS]
May the Lord protect and defend you.
May He always shield you from shame.
May you come to be
In Israel a shining name.

May you be like Ruth and like Esther.
May you be deserving of praise.
Strengthen them, Oh Lord,
And keep them from the strangers’ ways.

May God bless you and grant you long lives.
(May the Lord fulfill our Sabbath prayer for you.)
May God make you good mothers and wives.
(May He send you husbands who will care for you.)

May the Lord protect and defend you.
May the Lord preserve you from pain.
Favor them, Oh Lord, with happiness and peace
Oh, hear our Sabbath prayer. Amen.

Day 45 -
Do you ever feel disconnected from society? I do. I'm not sure if I feel that I can't relate to others or if I'm just not at the same speed.

The world moves fast. There is no time for stopping to smell the roses, admire the stars and moon, or just daze into a loved ones eyes. When I stop to do such things, do I fall further away from what society considers reality?

The world is full of sadness, pain, hurt, drama. But it is more so filled with happiness, love, acceptance, and beauty. What do you choose to see?

Call me crazy, but I'd like to take my time. Does that disconnect me? Possibly.
Day 46 -
 When we go to the library (the one on post that we love love love), they give both of the girls a free meal at Taco Bell or Burger King at the PX.

What does this have to do with me? I love free stuff:)


Day 47 - Our poor Anne girl.

Most of Anne's day is spent crying. She is getting better and better, but with her being nearly two, the crys are getting more and more dramatic. Living in this house is no easy task. We have a list a mile long of major inconveniences:) One being, my sweet Anne girls tears.



When Anne is not crying, she is precious. The silliest thing will just make her laugh and laugh. I love my Anne more than I can say. Her crying is one serious job. But a job I wouldn't take back for a million laughs.

So if I don't answer my phone, or if my mood is very irritable. Most likely, the crying is just too loud and too often that day. And to those who spend time with me through her cries, and help out to give me some peace ... I give much thanks for you regularly!



Day 48 - Simply put, I love Simply Orange.

Pulp Free
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Day 49 -
"He is jealous for me
Loves like a hurricane
I am a tree
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy
When all of a sudden I am unaware of these
afflictions eclipsed by glory
And I realize just how beautiful You are
And how great Your affections are for me"

How He Loves Us

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Project 365 - Day 50 - 59

Day 50 - I love random pretty chairs. I like artwork that uses chairs ... paintings, cross stitches, photography. I don't like a lot of chairs. Just one random pretty chair.

This chair is not just random and pretty, it is being used as a pot holder. How nifty is that.
 














Day 51 - I am so blessed, it would take pages to tell it all. But I'm hoping this project helps to bring into perspective the good in our days.

I always knew the potential in Rob. But seeing it first hand, just blows me away. He is many wonderful things, but on the top of that list is he is a great dad. How lucky my girls are that I have such great taste;)

Rob is a great dad when the girls are looking and when they are not, when it's easy and when it feels impossible, when he has the time for the girls and when he doesn't have a second to spare. There is never a moment to his day where his children do not come first, where he is not trying to be a role model for them, where he is not guiding them.

I have the pleasure in watching my husband and daughters growing together. I have been blessed with Rob, with (so far) two amazing girls, and a family unit that is stronger than I knew possible till recently.

I love my snookums
;)



Day 52 - A house where children live can be very spooky. Talking dolls, toys turning on and off on their own, and things being set up in scary ways. Here is the double Dora I walked out to this evening. All I needed was some scary music in the background.



Day 53 - I'm sure many moms and dads can relate to this. The doctors. I feel like I live there sometimes. It would be easier on everyone, if I just packed up our bags and moved in.

And of course it is never a family appointment. If it's for me, neither girls can be there. For Isabella, maybe I can bring Anne. For Anne, they would like me to find care for Isabella. There aren't enough babysitters for all of the appointments we have.

But, I thank God we have the medical coverage for it. At the end of the day, we all get the care we need, and that is what really matters. But finding a babysitter can be one pain in the butt
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Day 54 - The Army paid for us to go on a weekend vacation with our family. The Great Wolf Lodge in NC. It was amazing. All four of us got to spend the entire weekend together and just relax and have a nice time.

We also got to spend time as a couple while the girls were being taken care of, and we got to spend time with friends.

I'm sad to have it all end, but loved having the time to spend as a family. The Army sure does know how to work my last nerve, but every now and then ... they pull through
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Day 55 - A child hugging an enormous wolf may not mean much for most parents, but for me it is so exciting. Anne hugged this wolf, named Violet, over and over and over. She was trying to cut in line, she was sneaking away from us, and just as she was done hugging her she would turn right around for one more quick hug. She wanted nothing but lots and lots of hugs from Violet.

Anne a week ago would have been terrified and possibly cried for longer than I'd like to imagine. But she is improving by leaps and bounds. She is social, brave, excited, happy, and more. <------Not all the time of course:) I'm not sure what is making the change so quickly for her, but whatever it is, God bless it:)

And I've said this before, but when she makes positive changes like this in life, I think of all the wonderful family and friends helping us and helping Anne. We wouldn't be looking at a picture of Anne hugging a giant wolf without you
:)


Day 56 - I used to love love love the heat. Now the heat makes me wear tiny clothes and bathing suits, neither of which I have the slightest interest in wearing;) This of course does not mean I am looking forward to the cold. But I am pleased that I can finally wear jeans and carry a sweater with me again.

I also love the colors and smells that come a long with fall nearing.

My favorite thing about this cooler weather though, is being able to open my windows. I adore fresh air and a nice cross breeze in my home.


Day 57 -  know I've already mentioned how much I love having the windows open. But I am not the only one. Arnie loves fall even more than I. Having the windows open for him is like a Teen Mom marathon for me;)















Day 58 - This crib was gifted from Mom and Dad when Isabella was born. I love this crib. It doesn't transform into a bed, but I think it's so pretty and simple. When Anne was born, Isabella got another crib from IKEA. Something smaller and more for her, less for newborns. And the pretty crib became Anne's.

Well now my baby is too quickly growing into a big girl. And sadly this means she has grown out of the crib. This is the last I will be seeing this crib for some time. I took this picture right before Rob dismantled it.
;)



Day 59 - This is the actual phone where the phone call came in, answered by my loving husband.

We are staying another year!!! The Bigda's will be home for at least a year 1/2 now:)))

I love my Columbia.